Having all these thoughts, and I'm pretty sure they all contradict each other.

Is it possible to turn one's brain off? I do not mean in that fatal, you are dead, zombie kill sort of way. I mean to sleep without nightmares or waking early and than not being able to go back to sleep. AHHHH sleep, I love you so much. I mean it, I have never felt this way before. I long for you when I am in class. I yearn for your sweet, sweet amnesia inducing embrace. I have loved before but not like this... This love affair with sleep began before Spencer and still continues <I'm so sorry, my darling> but I have to be true. To this adoration that I have been denying of late. I want you! I need you! Why, why do you tease me so? I am preetty sure I am writing this blog under extreme sleep deprivation and later I will re-read this and wonder what the H... I was talking about. The funny thing is ... I dont remember. 4 hours sleep and an 8 o'clock class are not funny.  I think I need a nap and a pillow and a soft bed and soft nice smelling sheets and ....snore....