Sometimes I completely feel that God is a mean kid sitting on an anthill with a magnifying glass, and I'm the ant. He could fix my life in five minutes if He wanted to, but he'd rather burn off my feelers and watch me squirm. Yes, I know its sacrilegious to even think it but seriously why put the longings in my heart if there is no chance in heck that I can have, what I want, now! Notice I did not say never, I said now. I AM TIRED OF WAITING!! If patience is the lesson I have to learn on Earth, WOW, I am failing that big time. Which is another thing that pisses me off, TIME! First you are too slow and I must wait to finish school, have a career, buy a house, have babies. Then you speed up and keep making me get older which is seriously freaking with my plans!!
Spencer: You know that everything happens for a reason.
Dea: See, that I don't need, that cliché. That is not helpful to me in this moment.
Spencer: Patience is a virtue.
Dea: Not helping! Why are you still talking?
Someone tell me please, please that this frustration will last but a moment in the grand scheme of my life, that I will have a job I love and babies that are mine to take to gymboree classes, that I will have a lovely home someday and that someday is actually closer than I think.
